intro to a book i’m not going to write
i present these images and texts not as a representation of who i am but as a representation of who i am not. these are places that i have been but am no longer. like footprints in the snow. if i was to take on any of these projects now it would result in a completely different output. there are no other possibilities, no way to have chosen a different path. everything relies on a combination and interaction of an eternally changing present. we perceive that the tree is the same as the seed from its continuity. the tree is not the seed and the seed is not the tree. the tree stems from the seed but it becomes the tree based not only on its seed, but on its position – in time, space, environment. the monumental question, in all things, is what to include. i hope that as you look at this you take special attention to what is not included here, because i am sure, without a doubt, that will tell more about what i believe in than anything else. what i eat. what i breathe. what steps i take. what i have seen.
thus i do not offer this as even a semblance of my self. for a few simple reasons:
1. no one cares,
and 2. a representation can never adequately represent, because it can only represent.
i hope to refrain from objectifying my self by the production of this book. i hope that it will find a life of its own. i hope that you will truly understand its message and use it as a door stop or a coaster or kindling for a fire. that is, attack it within its physicality.
i have attempted to blur the borders of my self by including many seemingly unrelated things and keeeping a loose organization. but in the end, i believe this to only have defined more of the limits of my self. more inclusion shows more of the non-order with which i live and write, it shows more of the things i saw, which are just as much my creation as the things i write and render. in other words i have only objectified more of my self than if i had excluded more as within a traditional book. i have expanded the limits of my self. the only way around objectification is to live and act physically. to create physically synchronous with thought. materialization as conceptualization.