but all of this is taken from within the limits. from within
the consumptive inclusion. from within the dream of freeing man's
soul from his body. a self which modifies its environment to suit.
man creates a duplicate, a vessel, and becomes that vessel. self
replication. chance is contained in a controlled box. creation is
tied to an author, to change, to evolution through real-time simulation
to avoid immediate death by obsolescence. in other words, the creation
is not independent from our thoughts about it. the creation has no
life of its own. it is meant to be a vehicle for our self and is
inseparable from our self.
and from without.... a meaningless void. a flicker on the screen.
abstention. creations are only appearances disappearing. a language
consuming itself. an implosion.
traditionally, creation was the production and product of difference.
the difference between male and female. the difference between genetic
code. adaptation was a product of chance and diversity. now
chance and diversity are things which we preserve. there used
to be a cellular division. a life separate from the original.
a creation no longer dependent on our thoughts about it. now there
is only cellular synthesis. now creation is impossible.
it is the image of our self which kills our self. we attempt
to transplant our mortal self into an immortal image of our self through
the work of creation. we attempt to bypass difference. to overcome
the separate life of the creation. to become our son. to clone.
while physically the son is a continuation of the father with the interaction
of the difference of the mother, the consciousness is not. physically,
if we procreate, we can not help but to exponentially diminish. life
is given through a synthesis of difference, and ultimately, division from
the mother. this is the problem of man's attempt to attain immortality:
to create an image which does not change is to create an image which is
dead; to create an image which does change is to create an image which
diminishes (through reinterpretation, recombination, implosion, etc.).
in other words, we either create a body or a soul.
in order to maintain our self, the self must be continuous. we
must transfer our self into our creation without losing the stream of consciousness.
we are limited in the amount of change we can sustain while maintaining our
self by the limits of the material which defines the self, by the definition
of self, by the language or genetic code which makes up self. can
we transfer our self to our creation if the creation is separate from our
self? if the creation is not separate from our self then is it
a creation? the attempt is to make a creation which is not separate
from our self. and to do this is impossible. although we can
make a mirror image of our self, without the self to look into the mirror
there is no self. the entire construct of language which we believe to be a preservation
of the self, only exists as a reinterpretation, a recombination in the
physical bodies of others. (the death of the author). a text
exists only as a body, a meaningless object, without another living creation
for it to recombine with. from outside language there is no language.
from outside the body there is no body. but more than that: from
outside the body there is no language. from outside language there
is no body. without a body, without a limit, without a definition,
there is nothing. everything is assimilated, synthesized, imploded.
language is the communication between differences. without differences,
without embodiment, without others, language is useless. without
language, without a definition of our limits, of our difference, our body
would not be separate from the world. there would be no understanding
of an individual life, of a body - a limit perceived only through language.