the placement of that desire

2006/5/23 7:45am, Sacramento at 90/94, W:

A large delivery truck coming at me took a left right in front of me, missing my front bumper by inches. My anger was quick. But as I thought back on it, I believe that anger, at least some sorts, also has a basis in desire. I wanted the truck not to be right in front of me. I wanted not to be in danger. And I externalized the blame to an other. If it had been myself, I suppose it would manifest as guilt. Both stem from a desire. It is the placement of that desire in self or other that can make it radically active.